pain and pills
how nothing seems to fit
wanting out
inconclusive tests
trying to explain
music without dancing
finding out that they're not what they seem
(and not being able to tell them that you know)
godlessness
groundlessness
faithlessness
weight
waiting
size and sighs
interruptions
sometime voices in the night
the last time i felt pretty
the hole that missing friends have left,
and the memories that won't fill it
needles
noises
the color of cement
and the way my shadow stretches taller
than i will ever be
